The pickle I’m in is so exhausting. I’m 25 and I’ve had the same boyfriend for what seems like forever but has only been 3 years. We’ve broken up twice, once because I went out of state and saw a guy that I’d known since childhood and thought that he was in love with me and I’d always wanted him so I did what any girl would do who was told fantasy man loved her back and broke up with my boyfriend. I cheated on him first though and then the day I came home I told him I fell in love with someone else and didn’t want to be with him anymore. We got back together four months later because well like all fantasy men, he lied and I was humiliated. So boyfriend takes me back right? Only this time it feels different. I realize that I really do love him and that he’s perfect for me but he treats me differently. I really feel like he just hasn’t respected me as much since, like he got into the habit of a lesser quality of treatment and didn’t realize that even though, almost two years later, I’ve changed he still treats me like I’m a really really really good friend. We broke up a second time because he pissed me off so badly I hit him in the gut. He broke up with me and again I learned that I can’t just hit people, getting that angry is pointless.
Now where I’m learning all of this and becoming a better girlfriend, for him, he’s stopped listening to me. He doesn’t listen when I say don’t do things that make me mad, don’t do things that embarrass me (such as farting in public, or using diarrhea as an excuse to get out of work when you don’t have it…seriously). Even when we’re having sex I try to tell him what I like and he just goes “Let me figure it out!” It’s not freaking sudoku dumbass there’s not much to figure out: Pleasure or NOT. And I could have easily shown him what I like but nooooOOooo he’s got to do it himself no matter how much I’m just lying there. It ends up that he never learns cause I get frustrated and push him off me.
I still love him and I still count him a really good friend but that’s just it…he’s not husband material so why am I wasting my time? Life is too short for bullshit and I’ve always said I’m not going to make myself unhappy. I’m pretty straightforward.….…
.…except for now. My car has been broken for a little less than a year because my boyfriend overheated it and now it needs a new engine (a cadillac.…’97 not like I’m pimping or anything) but he’s paying to fix it and and soon as it’s fixed and I know it’s going to stay running.….I’M GONE!
GONE GONE GONE GONE GONE I CANT FREAKING WAIT!!!!!!!!!