my friend told me yesterday after i bitched about my appearence that i’m hot. other people (not many) have said this (either to be nice or out of sarcasm) but even when they say it nicely, i feel like they say it out of pity because they know i’m right when i pick myself apart. i think i have BDD, so i’m never quite sure what i look like, if you can imagine. sometimes i think i look average which is completely fine with me, but most of the time i just see an ugly guy staring back at me with a stupid look on his face. people tell me i’m cute, i just tell them to fuck off.
