Im experiencing so many emotions right now. I gave a patient my phone number. Work found out and now Im looking to be fired. Im frightened. I did it because I had built a friendship not because I wanted to manipulate them. I wish I didnt care for them at the time but I did and I dont know what to do about it. I feel physically sick and anxious. Emotionally I cant switch off and all I can think about is that I might lose my job because I cared, I wanted to maintain the support after contact. Others did it so why couldnt I? I admitted it. I am not a bad person but I cant apologise for what I have done, as I dont regret it. I did it to support them not be sexual. I would like for this to end now, Its been eleven weeks of no conclusion and Im physically and emotionally exhausted.
Im naive.