I can be tough I can be strong But with you, It’s not like that at all Theres a girl who gives a shit Behind this wall You just walk through it.
I can’t take this anymore. It’s been a month and Im seriusoly going crazy without you in my life. I miss you soo much. I wish you would just talk to me, or talk to me through a friend,like Sadie? Tomorrow is your birthday and I wish I could come and wish you a happy birthday,and just to see you. It honestly feels like it has been MONTHS.
I’m so sick inside latley that all I think about is when is the next time Im going to get wasted. I’m so hurt and the pain won’t go away and I just try to hide it,but it wont go away. Actaully right now all I wanna do is get drunk. I want this pain to become numb… just for little bit. It seems that is the only way I can have a good time now without my mind going a mile a minute.
Sometimes, I wonder if you still care about me or you cared about me in the first place.I wonder if you ever even think about me still.I wonder if it hurts you as much as it hurts me.I wonder if it bothers you as much as it bothers me. It probably hasen’t took a hold of you as much as it has me.I feel like I’m doing all this shit just to get attention from you but it is not working becuase you aren’t here to see how i am. Too see how messed up i really am.
You’ve effected me more than you will ever know. I guess, ive let it affect more than I should, you being away that is and not being in my life.I know i didnt make you my whole world, it’s just something about you.. it keeps pulling me back to you. I’ve tried to forget about you, but I cant. You’re just one of those people I can’t forget. Have you ever met someone like that? I said the same thing About my friend Fleury but with you it is soo much different.The connection we had was way stronger with you than I ever had with him. You and I so much in common. I’ve never had so much in common with someone before.And the thing were we could read eachother minds sometimes, that alwaus blew my mind away. And how we kind of knew what eachother was feeling.
I just miss you so much,E. Please talk to me?