Everyone in my life says that I’m a rock… level-headed, calm and emotionally stable. What they don’t know is that inside I’m crippled by insecurity and neuroses. My “stability” comes from my paralysing fear of trying anything new, my lack of emotion comes from my shyness and fear of appearing vulnerable.
It’s so depressing that everyone who considers themselves close to me has no idea what I’m really like. I’m lonely.