I smoked herion yesterday. i’ve done coke to many times.. i’m 18, my parents have no idea.… i feel like i’m fucking up my life.… i typed confessions into google and this came up. it was all just to impress this boy.…. this stupid little boy, i liked him.….… well i mean i like him. he offered it to me… i’ve been so incredably alone. i’m gay.…… everyone knows.….. but i feel like the only one. i was raped constantly when i was a child, i just found out that the man who did it died.…. why do i feel sorrow for him? why the fuck would i do a downer if i am so depressed.… incredably stupid. the boy didn’t even turn out to be gay.….. all for nothing i guess.…. i just couldn’t hold that stuff in inside.. i hope.….. i just hope that by clicking confess.…. that i might feel something other then what i am feeling right now. i think i need help.
