I’m involved in this weird, convoluted thing with this girl I like. She has feelings for me, feelings for another guy in the same college, and is also involved in a long-distance relationship with a guy she’s been dating for 3.5 years. The thing is, I’m not concerned at all about any of this. In the past I would have been torn up over something like this but here I am, feeling about as nonchalant as I could about the whole thing. Funny enough, that’s the one thing that’s bothering me: why am I so relaxed about all this? I think maybe I see so much of me in her that overall, I just want her to be happy even if that means not doing things with me anymore.
This is the weirdest feeling. I wonder if I can continue to feel this way or eventually it’ll all catch up and bite me in the ass.