Im having mood swings, i mean like bipolar shit but minute to minute, its fd up. Its been like this since my latest job and i feel its the factor for the most part despite that other stuff. If i told or when i tell people its because i can pick up the energy of everything/one alot of people give me that look. Really its everything compounded and i fantasize about just getting up one morning and leaving everything but essentials behind and just driving and going little town to little town till the energy feels right. People say every place is the same but its not true, not when their are other factors besides people. I just want out. Im stuck here. But i can be impulsive when in fight or flight mode and if i feel something is nagging me enough i could just break down and do it. I want out so bad. I need to leave for a while to get this thick feeling off of me. Or if its a person/ people i need to fix, resolve, or block the negativity. Because ive never felt this down before and then up and it scares me.
