Im Married and I love my husband for everything that he is and does. But I am IN love with my ex-fiance. my thoughts always go back to him. I always want him, I feel so empty without him. Life without my ex doesnt seem to have a purpose.
I dont hear from him often. Only once in a blue moon, but I hear from him none the less. I still call his UNPLUGGED house phone and wonder if he will pick up. but he never does. and thats ok because I wouldnt know what to say if I heard his voice again.
He used to hit me…call me names…he was controlling…he was never any good for me…but the love we made and the things we went through together are memories and feelings I dont think I will ever forget. I’ll never forget his face.
I love my ex and always will. But I am also very much in love with my Husband. I dont want any of my feelings or thoughts to ever permantly or even temporarily effect the relationship between my husband and I. 3