Hi again… I have been trying not to masturbate.. or llok at porn.. and I think I did it for two days straight.. longest I’ve gone is a week… well I broke after 1 day.. today that is.. I think I use it as a crutch.. I really just need help and prayer I’m a christian and its so hard.. I hate that I even got exposed to this terreible industry.. and I just am lost.. I really need god to touch me and help me feel better it feels good to tell people who actually care my friends and fam will probaly get mad and disown me.. I don’t need that… it makes me feel worse.. which is why I am here… I love god and my family.. I’m even a republican. .I know about sexual immorality and all he other stuff but it just really is hard to do this… I’m goin to try to stop… like I said earlier.. I need prayer… I’m like at a breakig point! My life has been feeling so hard on me… I just really need to stop this masturbating and looking at porn… and I looked at gay porn I’m not gay.. but I had a hard day and I saw it so I looked at it… I feel how wrong it is but like I couldn’t stop looking.! I just hate the devil! He opened all of thus bad stuff into me… I hope I can clear my mind and just not do all this bad stuff anymore I want all of you to pray real hard fore me.…;(
