This one’s a three parter…
Kind of a story about how i’m not living in alignment with my actual values.
I serve with my nation’s armed forces and certain standards of behaviour and bearing are expected but the truth is I just want to bum around all day like some kind of bohemian intellectual type. I just want to write and read. I want to live like some sort of debauched, voluptuary. Dabble in the most illicit substances and seduce the daughters of the wealthy and well to do like a foppish dandy.
“The road of excess leads to the palace of wisdom” WILLIAM BLAKE
I have a strong moral compass and always treat people with dignity and respect.
I’m honest, especially when it comes girls. I’m currently sexually/romantically involved with three different women at anyone time and the reason they are all ok with it (they all know I’m seeing other women) is because I’m honest. I tell them right from the get go. This is the way I choose to live my life because I personally don’t hold with relationships but it worries me that i may never have children this way. I suppose the confession here is for the benefit of others, that the way I live my life is wrong as far as others are concerned.
And finally, albeit with a certain irony, I’m still hung up on one of the two “real” girlfriends I’ve ever had in my life. Hence the No Relationship Rule I’ve tried to live by for the best part of a decade.
Pray for me.