My boyfriend is the most wonderful person anyone could ever hope to be in a relationship with. He is the perfect blend of sweet and sexy, sensitive and manly, artistic and athletic, smart and funny. In all honesty, he’s my best friend. He makes me happier than anyone in the entire universe and I am so in love with him. I seriously would not change anything about him, or our relationship, even if I could.
Except one thing: the sex.
I mean, we were both virgins when we met, and neither of us really knew what we were doing, but it’s not like it’s that difficult of a concept. He totally turns me on, foreplay is awesome (and he even enjoys it (it’s not always Wham, Bam, Thank you Ma’am)), and even the sex itself is incredibly hot. I just can’t have an orgasm with him! This is frustrating for a multitude of reasons. Mainly because I know it’s not his fault; I can’t even make myself cum when I masturbate, unless I use a vibrator or something. We’ve tried different positions and different locations and handjobs and oral but nothing works.
The worst part is, I’ve just been faking orgasms this whole time. I feel awful, because we usually talk honestly about everything with each other, and I do mean EVERYTHING. But I know how I felt that one awkward time when I rode him and couldn’t get him off (we had to switch around to finish the job) and I almost cried because I felt the smallest bit inadequate…haha how Irrationally Emotional Woman of me, right? Anyway, I could never let him feel like that EVERY TIME we’re intimate! But at the same time, I’m starting to feel desperate.
This is my only complaint…but it’s kind of a big complaint, isn’t it? I just don’t know what to do. *SIGH* Sorry for the long, and predictibly sex-based post. I really needed to get that off my chest. Group Hug!