i just spent an entire hour of my time looking at 165 pages of girls on friendster trying to find a picture of the girl he left me for.
it didnt even fucking work.
im a complete moron.
i cant sleep or eat and talking to you causes me so much pain its all i can do to keep my eyes open. but not talking to you hurts so much more. i fucking need you and she doesnt. i will fucking love you and she wont. youre throwing us away for the most insane thing in the world. but i still love you and i know that as absolutely fucking pathetic as it is of me, i would get back with you in a second if you wanted when it doesnt work out with her. ive never loved anyone before you, and i dont fucking WANT to love anyone else. when you see me again im going to look amazing and i know you wont care but im going to look amazing. ive never felt this used in my life. i dont fucking understand and its making me want to die. but i want you to be happy so im going to be your friend and i will pick up the pieces when she breaks your heart. i fucking love you so im letting you go.