i have what i call a pussy eating disorder. regardless of any factor, i can’t stop giving oral sex to females who want me to. i have had it with dangerous women, bosses, co-workers, strippers, curious little girls, teenagers, STD carriers (many HIV+), junkies, my dad’s ex lovers, my mother’s friends, and even my mother herself. i’m 23 now. my mother started me off at 10 and told me i had no choice. i don’t know if i can’t say no because i really want to or if i can’t say no because my mother didn’t give me a choice. the only way i try to get over this is to drown myself in more oral sex, but it makes me feel even guiltier than before. it’s like i am proving to myself that i’m a disgusting bastard. for this, i will never forgive myself.
