I hate this feeling of love going unanswered. I know that she’s already taken, but something inside of me, tells me that things are not well between them. I don’t know, I don’t think they have seen each other since he got back from out of country, it’s been a month now apparently. And I was getting so close to her, before he came into the picture. Now he’s around, she in love with him, and I’m left empty handed. We are good friends right now, and she isn’t bothered by an offer to hug every now and then. After all, I’ve been the nicest guy to her.
We have so much in common, if I could only find the way to get her to talk more. I guess both of us being introspective mostly, doesn’t help that. But I’ve enjoyed the good conversations when they come around.
She lives within 10 minutes of me. I don’t think he lives within 30 minutes of her. Well, I guess that is good.
I don’t care about sex, just a feeling of acceptance. A feeling of being loved, and yet loving at the same time. I’d wait till she’d offer it… if ever.
But to see her smile when she sees me, always makes my day.
Perhaps if I’m patient, maybe I will have her. I just love her so much, it hurts right now.